wh msg me some weird stuffs today. he ask me if i could like him. obviously not now until i'm finished with my current super act cute bf lah. which is on xx/xx/xxxx. hehs. anyway, got a shock lah. but i'm happy cause there's another person who wanna steal my heart. so be careful hor my bf! blehs. hehe. anyway msg halfway then he no reply liao. so i just asked raymond what happened to him. then, he say he broke up with his girl already. no wonder he will say such weird stuffs. it must have hurt alot. that's what happen when both dont accomodate to each other? eh, dont know lah. i cant judge anything also. i only know the guy side of the story and not the girl's side. so let nature take it's course ba.

actually i wonder how my life would be if he was not with me anymore. would it be like that between me and alan? or would it be a total different story? i've alway imagined thatif we broke up, after breaking up with him how would life be? would he still love me like what he had said before? or would he fall for someone else after a few days? would he still love me during our breakup time and hopes to patch with me and try all means to win me back? or would he stay out of my life forever? for me, i would choose not to, still, keep in contact with him i guess. cause the times we've been through is so much. so many things that have been shared. i wonder if i could still cope with life if i broke up with him. cause there's no one to rely one. all along i've been relying on him and only him. not my friends, not my clique. my reliance on him has grown increasingly. so much that i cant pull myself away.

all the while i've been giving in to this relationship cause i think this guy, raymond sung feng lim, is just so special to me. i believe in him. so much so that if he break my trust, everything would also just fall apart. cause if even he will lie to me, i dont know who to trust anymore. though i hate him at times and his name cause it's like so common(bleh!), i still love him very much. darling read here. msmeisme.blogspot.com hehe

but anyway, woke up early in the morning today. then went to buona vista. so far right? did some job then left in the noon. had really bad heart pains in the morning then followed by stomach pains. wonder what's wrong with my stomach. been having these pains for quite a few days already. especially after eating or drinking. and worst is i'm having a bad flu now. the tap keeps leaking and sneezing. used so much tissue already lor. =(

oh ya, i tried to catch fei yest but think she's too fat smooth that she slip through my hands. haha. that nut head. berry is not eating the vegetables! ahh, so fussy.

i think san shi from my lovely samsoon is SUPER DUPER CUTE and SWEET LOR! bf, pleaseeee learn from him k? hee.

having a bad headache. =( but i touched FEI!!!!! YAY~ hehe. but that nut head tried to bite me when i was feeding her. so touching her was her punishment! hehe. that fat girl. bleh!

and i saw andrew today. that elvis' clique one. haha. think he was damn shocked when he saw me. so was i lah. then he keep like staring one kind like that. eyer!

i said something stupid. i told sis ' imagine i bite fei, will powder burst out of her?' HAHA.